ERMAGERD i still exist! AHAHA thank you much kindly texan accent shindigs for your lurve DJ!

Now i want to apologise for my absense cause i have been dead to the world for a while and i have a new job as a waiter teehee, ambition accomplished! Also I am retiring from PMD! Heres why- brace yourself!

Basically after that period where my assignments ended i was like way late on the mission and the other one was pretty much finished and to be honest i actually started hating my work- at first it was fun (see slapdash random ness in the first PMD submission) but then i started getting competitive (i know right didnt pick for the type did you ahaha jks)and i was just already to far behind. That turned into rage! IKR! And basically being the introverted hermit i am i reflected it internally. A long period of artist block pressumed after that and eventually i became scared to draw- i was literally frightened to pick up a pen anywhere outside uni. I would look at good art and preach it to the animals on my bed- 'Hail the unreachable goal Mr Wombles and Bikini- pay your respects' and i would also look at not so good art and just think thats me- thats all im ever gonna be able to do (i really suck at colouring and i still have yet to pick up again but hopefully...). And then i found youtube. It started with an edition of ImagineFX with an article on a concept artist Feng Zhu [link] [link]. I found out that he actually has a school not so far from australia in a land called SINGAPORE- close the the kanto region. And to be honest i was inclined to do the preach again but there was something in the sketches that kinda reminded me of all the other drawings i did before PMD and i was 'intrigued' to pick up a pencil again. Sooo i got myself a little A5 sketchbook and started from scratch. I hadnt drawn in so long that i had to relearn how to draw anatomy (to be honest im still learning posing). Basically youtube comes into it because i researched drawing tutorials and tried them myself and found 'APPROPRIATE' sources of inspiration (by that i mean stuff that was what i was into and that was on a similar level or a bit higher) [link] . This video really helped me out and i have now fallen in love with avater over again- and currently hunting down spencer to take his hand in marriage (we will adopt 10 children). LOL but yes and by the end, current day i guess, of it i kinda came out alright. I am know focusing on how i can improve my self and reach my goals. That journal about weird habits that i believe is on my dash is going to be going ahead as project 'social anxiety'.
As for PMD i am done. I just dont like that part art so i probably going to stay away from fan art for a while- depending on how long i can resist.
As for my infinite regret for how i have abandoned my little troup of cameo peeps i am hopefully going to submit some form of art to each of you as reimbursement, but right now i am working on drafts for the project . Heck i might even open up a knew account and start fresh! If i do ill let you know!

Thanks for sticking with me for so long DJ. I hope youre having a fantastic holiday and if you have been affected by the recent you shooting you have my shoulder- however it aint quite as gold as yours lol! stay tuned bro

fo shizzle!!!! but only if you want to!